29 October 2010

Excuse the melodrama. For once in my life, I just want to be able to lean on somebody. To cry when something happens and just be held. I am always the strong one, the happy one. I like being happy. But it's unfair to just expect me to forget my own struggles to carry those of another.

And so, the tears fall silently. I choke back the sobs with a shudder. I pretend the sniffles are due to the weather.

Funny how a single day can start so long ago, and be... and be just... lovely. And then, you do something just a moment too long. A moment. That's all it takes. All it takes to send a small crack sliding through your life. To see something that would have kept til tomorrow just as well. Or over the weekend. Even better.

I think I need to go home. I need my mommy. And my dad. And to crack a few jokes with my brothers. Because I like being happy.